altogether new

Well it has definantly been a while since I've blogged. I think bloggin is the old thing now. Now everyone is all about "facebook." Which is ok I guess, just as long as I can stay in touch with people.

Where do I begin? Last time I blogged I was praying and believing for a new step to take. I decided that I would move to Red Deer; to 'see what would happen.' I definantly felt a release to go there, even though it scared the begeegies out of me.

Before I moved to Red Deer I was living in Saskatoon. In all my wandering I was earnestly seeking for God. Somehow I knew that there was more than my mundane, boring life. I was longing for intamacey, but I had no idea what it looked like or how to find it. My relationship with God consisted within my bedroom and it didn't move much past there. That scared me because I wanted to share Christs love with other people but I couldn't because I didn't feel like I had anything to give. I didn't fully believe how much God loved me; so it made it hard to love myself. I was holding on to things God was calling me to let go.

So I moved to Red Deer to soon discover that to love me was like trying to hug a thistle bush. God began to bring to the surface the very things that were keeping me from Him. I began to have amazing dreams; in these dreams I would meet these girls and I would powerfully share Gods love with them. They each had different things that they were dealing with and I would minister to them in that way. It was encouraging because I didn't feel bold enough in real life to do that. One day while me and Anthony were biking, we biked past this girl and it was one of the girls in my dreams!! I was so shocked, because nothing had ever happened like that before. Anthony made me go talk to her. Unfortunately I didn't share Christ's love with her because I was too chicken. But somehow that was a turning point for me. Realizing how BIG God really is. The first month however was a wrestle. God was bringing me to a place of complete dependency on Him, and it wasn't alot of fun.

I decided that I would stop putting God in a box and allow Him to do as He willed in my life; whatever it looked like I would start giving Him my all and be obedient. The first thing I felt to do was to repent. I prayed God would show me things I didn't even realize I was doing. I repented of every little thing I could possibly think of. I didn't want to take it lightly so I made a day of it. I didn't feel much, I didn't feel any different. But something was switched in the spirit realm. I began to feel the favor of God on my life, I became hungrier than I have ever been. People came into my life and I began to feel the presence of God that I have been longing for. The veil was stripped and my religious spirit was gone. I see God for who He is and not what I've made Him to be. I stopped wanting to please people, I just wanted to be obedient to God. So its been amazing!

This has turned more into a testimony than anything, but that is ok. I've told all that so I can identify this new journey I am taking. I leave on sautrday the 15th for California to Bethel School of Ministry. I was orginally going to ywam in australia, but God changed m plans last minute and I know I must trust and be obedient. I can't wait to go and be surrounded by people that are also earnestly seeking after God, cause that is when things happen; where heaven meets earth and supernatural awakenings occur. Where we can rest knowing that we serve a BIG God.

I will continue to update my blog because I know that great and amazing things are going to happen. Please pray. Also if you ever want to come and visit, that would be amazing