abiding in the vine

wow! I don't know exactly what I'm going to write but I really feel like Im about to explode. This week has really been amazing. I have just been getting to know Papa God and He has been showing me things. I am learning that the kingdom of heaven is ours and we can take as much as we want, basically there is no limit to God's blessings. This whole supernatural thing is still so new to me, and I am just learing that even God can heal people through me, and even I can have the gift of prophecy. So once I learned that God is not mad at me and is not dissapointed in me, ministring to other people has become endless. I have something to give and God wants me to give it!!!!!

Last night was the first night out that we had a team of people go through the city of Redding. We had a chance to pray over a family and just speak words of encouragement and words of knowledge over them. At first I was scared but once I just stepped out I felt Gods pure and true love for them in such an overwhelming way! We had a chance to pray for a homeless man who had a stroke and his right side is always on fire and in pain, so we prayed and most of the pain left! And for about 2 and half hours 4 of us spent time with another homeless alcoholic, my roomate who is an ex-heroine addict prayed that the addiction would be broken off of him. We all felt a new lightness in the car, and the guy felt it too. His heart is in the right place and is looking for a change so He is coming to church tomorrow morning, and I believe he will see a great breakthrough in his life!

Also yesterday a young guy from our school who had to wear a back brace was comepletely healed and no longer has to wear it!!! People are coming to know Christ everyday. We have worship everyday and sometimes the prescence is so strong that we carry what God is doing right through class! The other day, people were so slang in the spirit that half the class was past out on the ground even 2 hours after school ended! God is doing something great, and I'm loving it!!!

I was thinking yesterday about what God has taken me through and where I have been in life. And just a year ago I was so dry and felt so far from God that I didn't even want to tell people I was a Christian because I didn't know what I had to offer, now I feel like I have everything to give!!!!


yay for Jesus!!!!

in CALI!!!

Well I am finally in California! It definitely was quite the journey. We got to the border in Abbotsford BC, last Saturday. To make a long story short we got denied twice. I can’t even explain the devastation I felt when I was told we were not allowed to cross. Derek Deacon and I had to get our fingerprints and pictures taken; I felt like a complete criminal. We kept trying to get across with little sleep, and new papers. The entire time it looked hopeless. Anyway, our third attempt I didn’t know what to think anymore, I was mad at God. We had a bunch of people praying for us. We arrived at the border just as they were doing shift change and by the grace of God we had 2 Christians working on our case!!! If we would have gotten anyone else we would not have been able to cross, because now the guard had to do research and justify why he was letting us cross. So we crossed with the visas we needed! Then we traveled another 14 hours to Redding California just to make it a couple hours before school started on Tuesday morning.

I learned a lot from that trip. I realized that my full trust was not quite in God, and that it needed to be. I also learned how much God loves me, and that he is faithful even if we are faithless. I got to hang out with some cool people in Abbotsford, which made the trip more enjoyable. I think I am still unwinding from everything.

The school here is amazing. It isn’t just a time to learn new things but it is also a time to grow into a warrior; to gain passion to change the nations. I desire to know God more than anything. My mind is being transformed into the mind of Christ. Signs and wonders [signs that make you wonder, hehe] are a normal thing here at Bethel; knowing Jesus Christ has never been so much fun! A physical manifestation of the Holy Spirit that I have been experiencing personally is feathers (“there is healing in His wings”). They appear out of nowhere; I have been in restaurants, at home and at school when I have seen them and they all look the same. A year ago I would not have believed such a thing; now that I have been in the presence of the Holy Spirit I now know that anything is possible. Daily we hear testimonies of Christ’s provision and complete healings; anything from healing of blindness or deafness to no traces of hepatitis C or cancer that once lived in a body. God is so good and he wants us to know how big He is.

There is so much more even happening that I would much rather just sit and talk with you over coffee sometime. Let’s hang out!!! I want to know your heart.

altogether new

Well it has definantly been a while since I've blogged. I think bloggin is the old thing now. Now everyone is all about "facebook." Which is ok I guess, just as long as I can stay in touch with people.

Where do I begin? Last time I blogged I was praying and believing for a new step to take. I decided that I would move to Red Deer; to 'see what would happen.' I definantly felt a release to go there, even though it scared the begeegies out of me.

Before I moved to Red Deer I was living in Saskatoon. In all my wandering I was earnestly seeking for God. Somehow I knew that there was more than my mundane, boring life. I was longing for intamacey, but I had no idea what it looked like or how to find it. My relationship with God consisted within my bedroom and it didn't move much past there. That scared me because I wanted to share Christs love with other people but I couldn't because I didn't feel like I had anything to give. I didn't fully believe how much God loved me; so it made it hard to love myself. I was holding on to things God was calling me to let go.

So I moved to Red Deer to soon discover that to love me was like trying to hug a thistle bush. God began to bring to the surface the very things that were keeping me from Him. I began to have amazing dreams; in these dreams I would meet these girls and I would powerfully share Gods love with them. They each had different things that they were dealing with and I would minister to them in that way. It was encouraging because I didn't feel bold enough in real life to do that. One day while me and Anthony were biking, we biked past this girl and it was one of the girls in my dreams!! I was so shocked, because nothing had ever happened like that before. Anthony made me go talk to her. Unfortunately I didn't share Christ's love with her because I was too chicken. But somehow that was a turning point for me. Realizing how BIG God really is. The first month however was a wrestle. God was bringing me to a place of complete dependency on Him, and it wasn't alot of fun.

I decided that I would stop putting God in a box and allow Him to do as He willed in my life; whatever it looked like I would start giving Him my all and be obedient. The first thing I felt to do was to repent. I prayed God would show me things I didn't even realize I was doing. I repented of every little thing I could possibly think of. I didn't want to take it lightly so I made a day of it. I didn't feel much, I didn't feel any different. But something was switched in the spirit realm. I began to feel the favor of God on my life, I became hungrier than I have ever been. People came into my life and I began to feel the presence of God that I have been longing for. The veil was stripped and my religious spirit was gone. I see God for who He is and not what I've made Him to be. I stopped wanting to please people, I just wanted to be obedient to God. So its been amazing!

This has turned more into a testimony than anything, but that is ok. I've told all that so I can identify this new journey I am taking. I leave on sautrday the 15th for California to Bethel School of Ministry. I was orginally going to ywam in australia, but God changed m plans last minute and I know I must trust and be obedient. I can't wait to go and be surrounded by people that are also earnestly seeking after God, cause that is when things happen; where heaven meets earth and supernatural awakenings occur. Where we can rest knowing that we serve a BIG God.

I will continue to update my blog because I know that great and amazing things are going to happen. Please pray. Also if you ever want to come and visit, that would be amazing