dreams

I haven't blogged since October. Got lazy I suppose. Well this last school year has been by far the most amazing year of my life. I have not only encountered God in the most astounding ways, I have also become who I have always desired to be. I have only a month and a half before school ends, then I come home to Canada.

So I have witnessed many people get healed, I have seen visions and dreamed dreams, I have witnessed gems and diamonds from heaven appear, I have felt Gods divine hand in every area of life and experienced his hand of provision. I never once had to ask for money, excluding writing letters for missions trip. I awake every day being thankful for the grace that surrounds my life.

In saying all that, the best thing that has happened is that I have fallen in love. I have first fallen in love with the maker of my being, secondly I have fallen in love with a man who first became my best friend then became the very joy in my heart. He is the one who fits me like a glove. There is no denying Gods hand in it all. He is my best friend. I can't help but feel like I want to tell the whole world. So I am to whoever feels like reading my blog!

I have discovered that dreams do come true.

let it rain!

WEll it never stops being amazing. God has been bringing me through alot and opening my box that I may become more of me in Him.... School is still so rad. We had a conference here last week and people from 30 different states and 18 different countries came! It was great. One night we had 124 people get healed! I am in the prophetic arts ministry and I had a chance to sit in a booth and draw prophetic pictures and prophesy for people at the conference! God is so great and He did so many great things through that ministry.

I am learning alot about friendships and covenantal relationships. What it means to honor and to be selfless. Its hard because it means that I have to let go of a lot of old mindsets. To let my guard down and to trust! Sometimes it means being completely vulnerable! aaaaaah!

Yesterday in our prophetic class, our AMT teacher brought in her prophetic team to come and prophecy over the class.... the team consisted of 6 kids from the ages of 8-13! I was blown away, I couldn't help but cry and to see such child-like faith. They spoke with boldness and every word they prophesied was correct in some way. It was astounding, I cannot explain what God did to my heart through them. It reminded me to come to God like a child and not to worry what others may think. Gods love is the main thing. Let it rain!

I'm meeting so many amazing people. People so in love with God and so full of passion. It inspires me to never ever stop wanting more.

prophecies on my birthday

You were a hitchhiker and you were picked up by Jesus and he’s really excited about this trip too
· Held out a list of the things you wanted to do
· He has a bonus list you for you too, things you haven’t thought about yet

Small bit of light on you
· This small bit of light will break the armor on people and show them the way out

intimacy… You’re going into a new level of intimacy and will happen really quick
· expect it tonight or tomorrow morning
· GET READY!

Interests
· He’s making your interests exactly what he wants them to be

Blessed
· To have friends who want to honor you and bless you in the circle
· Cherish it!
· We cherish you too!
o That’s not prophetic

Caretaker
· You’re on the right path, exactly where you’re supposed to be

Diamond
· God using you as a diamond to cut through people’s guarded hearts





You had a red dress on
· You had a peace that wasn’t running out
· Like a long movie where you don’t have to worry, a love story
· Don’ t rush to the end, enjoy it while it goes

Elizabeth Miller saw: an angel tear drop figurine, didn’t know what it meant

There was an ocean hitting the rocks
· Little tiny diamond
· You’re the tiny little diamond, under a bunch of rocks
· God is melting
· Your passion is going to melt this way
· You’re an incredible gift to us

Stalactite
· It’s growing you
· The center is the tip that’s going to be there sometime
· God will use this to grow you out
· God’s blessings remain on you

Connect the dots…
· The heavens and the stars were the dots
· You were getting lost in his intimacy
· All the cares were going away
· It was an intimate time with you and the father

You are a royal princess before God
· You’re like Sara, a woman of faith
· Sara had a child late in her age, BUT don’t look around and continue to look at God
o God is saying you’re going to birth something great, that it’s going to be phenomenol
o Sara was the mother of a nation like Abraham was the father of a nation
§ There’s going to be laughter and joy in that child, in what God is bringing forth in your life to the nations

A white rose blooming
· You’re the rose and it’s your heart and it keeps opening more and more and breathing into you
o He’s satisfied with your love, he’s satisfied with breathing into you

God said, “I love her, I love her!”
· God’s opening you up to receive more and more

Your life will be a fragrance of the bride of the church
· People will be hit with the mindset of the bride
· And how God’s come to us
· The love of our intimacy to God will be in your lips and in your walk

Really big mountain covered in snow and there’s a tree line
· Then at the cloud line
· The white top peak was sticking out of the mountain
· Finally you’ll come out of the trees
· The trees were an obstacle in your life to get free from
· The clouds made it difficult for you to see
· As you come out of the clouds it gets clearer and you got to the summit and it was so high that you couldn’t breathe because there was no oxygen left
· You have to rely on God in every place in your life and when you get past one and rely on God you’ll be able to breathe when you get to the top

You are a Mary, sitting at the feet of Jesus with a huge alabaster jar
· It’s no question for you and that jar was her life
· The value of that was a year’s wage/dowry
· And she broke it at the feet of Jesus
· Jesus said, “That’s my Mary.”
o Jesus said, “you’re already there darling.”
· You’re one of the most desperate Marys
· People around you criticized her/you, but Jesus said, “that’s my girl!”
· You’re under Jesus’ wings and he’s very defensive and protective over you and he just delights in you

You’re a story book princess
· Even though you feel trapped in a tower
· He’s going to slay the dragon and sweep you off your feet
· There’s going to be a perfect ending

Don’t hold back
· He’s building you up for relationships
· You’re about to become more vulnerable
· Don’t hold back, it’s about to become a treasure

year that Jesus is going to romance you
· Your heart is longing to be romanced
· He’s going to show you romance
· He’s going to fill those deep desires in your heart
· Diamond… this year is God is going to unveil your beauty
o You’re beautiful, but what God is going to unveil is even greater
o There’s a lot of favor in your life
o You’re going to go places because of this favor, places you didn’t think you could
o You’re going to meet people, and it’s because of what you bring

Sharp diamond
· Beating diamond is your heart

You draw people with your purity, innocence, beauty
· People are drawn, people want good things from you from the purity and innocence and beauty
· That childlike heart, God loves it

White rose opening up and it was purity

Esther
· You’re an Esther, you have a lot of favor
· You’ll stand in the gap for others and be a voice

Cherry tree and blossoms
· Someone saw a movie of this
· To go along with flowers, you’re going into a speedy season of blossoming

You’re like Katherine K.
· You’re desperate after Holy Spirit and guard your relationship with God
·

You like rivers and nature
Red is your color
I saw clouds above you with the sun shining brightly through them???
· Open heavens, you will see them soon
· Confirmed by Jessie

I saw doves and eagles
· You’re a dove with an olive branch

you like alphabets cereal
Very careful with who your heart, who you give it too
You have a very sensitive heart
I saw a volcano spewing fire
· represents the fire in your heart, it’s dormant now but will burst forth
· confirmed by Jessie

You have a very specific request for your husband, God hears and will honor your requests

Icicles dripping water on you
· Holy Spirit dripping on you



The rain’s my love my love for you
It’s falling falling down
Falling falling on your heart
It’s falling on your beautiful face
It’s fall down
The rain it’s falling down
The rain
The rain’s my love for you
The rain’s my love
Your face like a flower opens up
The rain
The rain
Opens up
Opens up
I love how your face opens up to me
The rain
The rain
It’s light now
It’s light now
The rain it’s light now
The rain it’s sun now
Falling falling down
The rain’s falling down
Washing your tears away
Washing your tears away



You are my desert rose 2x
You’re not alone 2x
You are my desert rose 2x
There’s an ocean in the sky above you, you will not be dry 2x
There’s wells beneath the cracks under your toes
…
you’re my desert rose
and ilve loved you for so long
you’re my desert rose
you turn this desert into an oasis
an oasis
you’re my sweet oasis

(you’re my garden, open up to me like a garden)




An easy walk
All anointings, give her a double portion
No worrying
Just be herself
It’s so easy
Thank you Lord that you delight so much in her
He desires you much more than you desire him

papa loves you

I cannot describe how blessed I feel right now. I know every blog starts out like that, but it is so true. Every day has been a new adventure, and every morning I wake up expecting that God is going to do something new in my life and other lives. School is amazing; it doesn’t even feel like school. It feels like I’m at a place where neither passion nor hunger ever dies, but grows with every passing moment. It is true when they say it only gets better.

I will describe a couple testimonies. Last week we had a guest speaker named Georgian Banov come to speak and sing. The man lives in such freedom and joy that the entire school of 800 people were dancing in unison. The joy I felt I cannot explain.

Saturday night I received a random phone call from a girl at our school who asked if her and 10 others could come and use our hot tub in our apartment complex, I said sure so we all hung out. To make a long story short we ended up meeting 3 other guys from our apartment who ended up coming over. Two were catholics, and one wasn’t a Christian, the guys from our school were able to pray and prophecy over these guys and speak boldy into their lives until 2 in morning, which by then they didn’t even want to leave. The peace here was so strong that one of them lay out on our floor and was “soaking” in the presence of God. It was an amazing experience. One of the catholics came to church with us. That afternoon, another random guy came over and told us his gramma died and that he also wanted to go to church with us, so he did and had the most amazing time!

ARE you working hard for something that which is already yours???? LOVe, it’s already yours


Sunday night Pastor Bill had got some oil from a church in Puerto Rico. This church is constantly dripping oil from the walls, the podium, the Bible and every other inch of the church. It is a heavenly encounter. (video of it is on www.extremeprophetic.com with Patricia King). Anyway, Pastor Bill laid hands and anointed every single person (aprox. 1000 people), it took a couple hours but it happened. By then there was a new stirring in the spirit, and the church was taken on a next step. The crazy thing is, is that the oil container was completely full by the end of the night!!!!!!!! God is so good, I saw and smelled the oil container with my own eyes. And somehow I know this is only beginning.

Papa God loves you

I am His

I am my beloveds’ and he is mine.

A semi- quick update. School is getting more and more intense as we go on. I am learning more about myself, and of the Lord. I started taking a prophecy class. In it I have learned that the basis of a prophetic word is love. The reason we prophecy is to build up and encourage. It’s crazy because I feel like I have been released in this area to prophecy; it’s becoming more and more natural.

Every Friday we go out and do evangelism. Before we go, we write down things that God gives us, kind of like prophetic ‘clues’. We go into teams and we bring all our clues together. Our clues can be names, places, random things like tennis racket or braces, and we also have a need for prayer, maybe for a disease, or family dysfunction. We go where we feel God is leading us and from there we look for people on our list, and what usually happens is that we find God’s treasure. So on Friday we had a bunch of things on our list and they lead us to a girl named Rebecca, who had braces, scoliosis, nightmares, and we were in ‘In and Out’ when we met her. All this stuff was on our list, and it opened a door to share about God and that she was on HIS list. She was freaked out, but totally felt the power of God on her life. There was no more pain when we prayed for her scoliosis, and we also got to pray with her other friends who were amazed at what was happening. I will be in touch with them, and I am praying a for miraculous change in their lives. GOD is SO GOOD!

Also we found couches for our apartment! It is actually exciting to be home. It is real peaceful and I believe that everyone who walks in will feel the presence of God. So now I am about to go to Sunday night service. Have fun!

abiding in the vine

wow! I don't know exactly what I'm going to write but I really feel like Im about to explode. This week has really been amazing. I have just been getting to know Papa God and He has been showing me things. I am learning that the kingdom of heaven is ours and we can take as much as we want, basically there is no limit to God's blessings. This whole supernatural thing is still so new to me, and I am just learing that even God can heal people through me, and even I can have the gift of prophecy. So once I learned that God is not mad at me and is not dissapointed in me, ministring to other people has become endless. I have something to give and God wants me to give it!!!!!

Last night was the first night out that we had a team of people go through the city of Redding. We had a chance to pray over a family and just speak words of encouragement and words of knowledge over them. At first I was scared but once I just stepped out I felt Gods pure and true love for them in such an overwhelming way! We had a chance to pray for a homeless man who had a stroke and his right side is always on fire and in pain, so we prayed and most of the pain left! And for about 2 and half hours 4 of us spent time with another homeless alcoholic, my roomate who is an ex-heroine addict prayed that the addiction would be broken off of him. We all felt a new lightness in the car, and the guy felt it too. His heart is in the right place and is looking for a change so He is coming to church tomorrow morning, and I believe he will see a great breakthrough in his life!

Also yesterday a young guy from our school who had to wear a back brace was comepletely healed and no longer has to wear it!!! People are coming to know Christ everyday. We have worship everyday and sometimes the prescence is so strong that we carry what God is doing right through class! The other day, people were so slang in the spirit that half the class was past out on the ground even 2 hours after school ended! God is doing something great, and I'm loving it!!!

I was thinking yesterday about what God has taken me through and where I have been in life. And just a year ago I was so dry and felt so far from God that I didn't even want to tell people I was a Christian because I didn't know what I had to offer, now I feel like I have everything to give!!!!


yay for Jesus!!!!

in CALI!!!

Well I am finally in California! It definitely was quite the journey. We got to the border in Abbotsford BC, last Saturday. To make a long story short we got denied twice. I can’t even explain the devastation I felt when I was told we were not allowed to cross. Derek Deacon and I had to get our fingerprints and pictures taken; I felt like a complete criminal. We kept trying to get across with little sleep, and new papers. The entire time it looked hopeless. Anyway, our third attempt I didn’t know what to think anymore, I was mad at God. We had a bunch of people praying for us. We arrived at the border just as they were doing shift change and by the grace of God we had 2 Christians working on our case!!! If we would have gotten anyone else we would not have been able to cross, because now the guard had to do research and justify why he was letting us cross. So we crossed with the visas we needed! Then we traveled another 14 hours to Redding California just to make it a couple hours before school started on Tuesday morning.

I learned a lot from that trip. I realized that my full trust was not quite in God, and that it needed to be. I also learned how much God loves me, and that he is faithful even if we are faithless. I got to hang out with some cool people in Abbotsford, which made the trip more enjoyable. I think I am still unwinding from everything.

The school here is amazing. It isn’t just a time to learn new things but it is also a time to grow into a warrior; to gain passion to change the nations. I desire to know God more than anything. My mind is being transformed into the mind of Christ. Signs and wonders [signs that make you wonder, hehe] are a normal thing here at Bethel; knowing Jesus Christ has never been so much fun! A physical manifestation of the Holy Spirit that I have been experiencing personally is feathers (“there is healing in His wings”). They appear out of nowhere; I have been in restaurants, at home and at school when I have seen them and they all look the same. A year ago I would not have believed such a thing; now that I have been in the presence of the Holy Spirit I now know that anything is possible. Daily we hear testimonies of Christ’s provision and complete healings; anything from healing of blindness or deafness to no traces of hepatitis C or cancer that once lived in a body. God is so good and he wants us to know how big He is.

There is so much more even happening that I would much rather just sit and talk with you over coffee sometime. Let’s hang out!!! I want to know your heart.

altogether new

Well it has definantly been a while since I've blogged. I think bloggin is the old thing now. Now everyone is all about "facebook." Which is ok I guess, just as long as I can stay in touch with people.

Where do I begin? Last time I blogged I was praying and believing for a new step to take. I decided that I would move to Red Deer; to 'see what would happen.' I definantly felt a release to go there, even though it scared the begeegies out of me.

Before I moved to Red Deer I was living in Saskatoon. In all my wandering I was earnestly seeking for God. Somehow I knew that there was more than my mundane, boring life. I was longing for intamacey, but I had no idea what it looked like or how to find it. My relationship with God consisted within my bedroom and it didn't move much past there. That scared me because I wanted to share Christs love with other people but I couldn't because I didn't feel like I had anything to give. I didn't fully believe how much God loved me; so it made it hard to love myself. I was holding on to things God was calling me to let go.

So I moved to Red Deer to soon discover that to love me was like trying to hug a thistle bush. God began to bring to the surface the very things that were keeping me from Him. I began to have amazing dreams; in these dreams I would meet these girls and I would powerfully share Gods love with them. They each had different things that they were dealing with and I would minister to them in that way. It was encouraging because I didn't feel bold enough in real life to do that. One day while me and Anthony were biking, we biked past this girl and it was one of the girls in my dreams!! I was so shocked, because nothing had ever happened like that before. Anthony made me go talk to her. Unfortunately I didn't share Christ's love with her because I was too chicken. But somehow that was a turning point for me. Realizing how BIG God really is. The first month however was a wrestle. God was bringing me to a place of complete dependency on Him, and it wasn't alot of fun.

I decided that I would stop putting God in a box and allow Him to do as He willed in my life; whatever it looked like I would start giving Him my all and be obedient. The first thing I felt to do was to repent. I prayed God would show me things I didn't even realize I was doing. I repented of every little thing I could possibly think of. I didn't want to take it lightly so I made a day of it. I didn't feel much, I didn't feel any different. But something was switched in the spirit realm. I began to feel the favor of God on my life, I became hungrier than I have ever been. People came into my life and I began to feel the presence of God that I have been longing for. The veil was stripped and my religious spirit was gone. I see God for who He is and not what I've made Him to be. I stopped wanting to please people, I just wanted to be obedient to God. So its been amazing!

This has turned more into a testimony than anything, but that is ok. I've told all that so I can identify this new journey I am taking. I leave on sautrday the 15th for California to Bethel School of Ministry. I was orginally going to ywam in australia, but God changed m plans last minute and I know I must trust and be obedient. I can't wait to go and be surrounded by people that are also earnestly seeking after God, cause that is when things happen; where heaven meets earth and supernatural awakenings occur. Where we can rest knowing that we serve a BIG God.

I will continue to update my blog because I know that great and amazing things are going to happen. Please pray. Also if you ever want to come and visit, that would be amazing